Our journey as parents is immensely wild and vulnerable. We are committed to parent from our hearts and we are making a difference, we stumble and we try again. Our hearts expand and open in ways we thought were never possible. Being a parent makes us realize that we would do anything for this little human being that is filled with so much life and joy. It is not sacrifices we make, it is a change made out of respect and love. We are continuing to embrace our new life as a family with a small child and want to live our life to the fullest where it is most right for us to root and flower.

Daniel Stern says “Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go.”

With a pained heart that at the same time is yearning with the possibilities of beginning again our life is changing magically and drastically. It is time for us to move into the current of change and move our family to a new place. We are taking it one step and a time starting with the first step close in. Being able to give a child an environment where nature is close in, a smaller town where our home is minutes away from everything we need, is a privilege. We are blessed and we know it. In every way possible we open our hearts and bow our heads in gratitude to our life and every being that blesses us with their presence.

We are leaving the life that we know. We are leaving Los Angeles and starting over in Portland. A town where we feel our whole family can root and flower. This is very exciting for us and at the same time painful. Please share both our excitement and our pain. We are beginning to close our life here and begin anew. It is a great adventure for us all with new possibilities to be together and share our lives in a different way. Yes, we are talking to you. Know that you are never alone. Know that we are in this together. No matter where our physical bodies are.

The soil of this Los Angeles community has been rich and fertile for us, blessing us in ways seen and unseen. We are held and supported by an intimate circle of extraordinary men and women who hold the high watch for Jaylan as his godparents. A wider circle of women channeled the primal feminine through prayer and ritual as Anneli labored through love to give birth to our little king. We have been challenged and cherished by men’s groups and women’s groups to consciously dig into the dark places of our wounds because that is where our true gifts are to be found. And each and every one of you who has passed through the door of one of our Spiritweaves offerings has touched and moved us in ways that continually stirs our souls and sings in our hearts. Each of you has allowed us to live our ‘high dream’ and it is you, living in our heart, which gives us the courage to step across this threshold into the mystery of the unknown to begin again in Portland.

We are loving each other boldly. Daring to take the risk it takes to open. To open into a new life.

We are ending with words from Anaïs Nin ” Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country.”

Know that we are not leaving. We are arriving.